Crushed

Crushed

When life does not co-operate with you
You feel lost, drowning in your own thoughts…

You want to escape you want to get out

Wave after wave knocks you down

you are barely breathing

Confusion sets in,

you try to run but you don’t get anywhere

Your mind doesn’t want to shut up

it keeps on screaming

it keeps on banging you with thoughts

Your heart wants to fade

Your heart and mind are at war

You want them to stop, but they just go on

You fear for your own life, it numbs you

The earth will swallow you alive

Keep on breathing, keep yourself together

No one sees the fight you have with yourself

Life passes you by

Lost in yourself

You pull the sword to end it all

You fall to your knees

Tears are running down your cheeks

You want it all to stop, you want out

Fear and confused, you cry out

Help me, help me!

But no help arrives

The earth is spinning

Your life flashes before your eyes

You scream, make it stop!

Pain, shame, fear, and anger tear you apart

The pain is so intense

You feel cold and confused

It doesn’t seem to stop

I am drowning, I am falling

You try to escape, but it’s not working

You give yourself over to the pain, fear, and shame

It swallows you alive

It’s tearing you apart

You fall on your face

Screaming, let me out

Why are the memories so vivid, so clear?

You can feel the hand on your body

The pain going through your mind

My heart can’t take it anymore

My heart is leaving me broken

But still, I am breathing

Bearley alive, but still fully alive

Colours are spinning,

thoughts are rushing inside of me

I am falling apart, but no one seems to notice

Smile, it will get better with time,

you will forget, it will subside

But it is hunting you like a horror movie

It’s getting worse, not better

The pain in your heart breaks you down

Your heart is bleeding

your heart is fading away

Tears are not enough to express the hurt and pain

you can’t explain what you are feeling

It’s tearing you apart

But you are still alive

You are still breathing

But at the same time,

you are drowning – dying inside

The Panic attacks

It’s tearing you apart

The fear is so intense

You can’t escape the tears

The flashbacks are killing you

The intensity of dying overpowers you

Your thoughts are overwhelming you

You can’t get out

You can’t escape

You try to hide,

but can’t get small enough to disappear

Fear is gripping your heart

The pain makes your heart, ache

Your heart seems to miss a beat

But it’s not enough to let you die

You want out

But fear keeps you there

You want to kill the thoughts,

but it is too much, alive

Speak to someone, get it out

tell someone,

dig into the fear and pain

Get so close to the pain

that you can feel it brush over you

But still, it is like,

it is swallowing you alive

There seems to be no escape

Anger is flooding your being

There appears to be no escape

You are torn apart inside

No one understands

You are in pain, and it won’t go away

Your heart wants to stop

Your mind is not obeying

Help is not on the way

Tears of fear running down your face

I’m dying, but no one is noticing

Then it’s too late, and you are gone!