Afterwards

Emotions

The emotions after the addiction
You want to disappear
You want to become small
You want it to stop

When it hits you
You want to get high
Nothing will or can stop you
There is not a “NO!”
in your vocabulary
There is no way,
you can stop it now
You need it now
Desperation is kicking in

Afterwards,
you are flooded with feelings
Shame, Guilt, and Anger
Afterwards,
you wish you didn’t do it
But now, it’s too late
The emotions,
they were needed
The addiction,
was all you carved
You can’t think straight
Your mind is falling apart
Your mind is losing control
I need it;
need it to stop!
I don’t like the emotions
It’s breaking me apart
Your addiction got ahead of you
You can’t stop it, any more
Then you know,
You’re in trouble, for sure!